Yesterday I bought a wrap-over skirt, a pretty flowery thing with two scoops, a gap, flounces and a curvy hem. Obviously, it also sported ties for the wrap-around palaver, but no holes for one tie to go through. Even in the fitting room I felt a wash of anxiety roll over me, the no hole fact showing me losing my skirt in a public place. It would fall to the ground but not leave me because the ties would remain tied and this would assuredly result in my being stuck in the middle of a right fankle, unable to go forward or back without falling flat on my face. I brushed the image aside and the feelings associated, that rush of shame as I revealed my bottom in her ancient knickers, my old flabby thighs, the flopskin of my belly a glaring white light for all the world to see or, at least, those sharing the pavement with me. Go away, image, I hissed because I liked the skirt, had arrived in Africa skirtless and those pretty tops have hung miserably on their hangers inside a dark cupboard, longing for a skirt companion with accompanying mutters. It, the skirt, was also the only item of clothing in the store made of cotton. All the others were made of some slimy material that made me shudder. Slimy clings, slimy is hot, slimy is, well, slimy.

Back home I try the skirt on with the pretty top that doesn’t match. Obviously. We look nice together, me, the skirt and the top that doesn’t match and I pirouette before the long mirror, feeling intact and rather attractive. Then I begin to move about, making coffee, breakfast, clearing this, tidying that and that’s when I sense mutiny. The ties, as I had imagined, are busy working loose from the waistband of the skirt. I check. There is a gap of at least 3 inches between the ties and the skirt, a spread of lardy fat poking through. Singularly unattractive. I have only moved a few short paces, not walked far at all, and that image of my cotton collapse returns in technicolour. What to do? I know, I will make a hole, just snip one with scissors, no need to bind the edges, it’s only small after all. This done, I thread one tie through and tie a bow behind. That’s better. Only it isn’t. Still the mutinous skirt is determined to have her say, to establish control over me, and, although the result is not quite the same, I now notice one side of this damn skirt hanging lower than the other as the ties fight the waistband for supremacy. Who on earth designed this flaming skirt and got away with it, and not just once? There were at least ten of them on the rail when I selected my size. Do the designers not check a wrap over skirt for flaws, send some woman out hiking in it, up a mountain preferably, just as a car manufacturer would send new vehicles for a test drive (up a mountain preferably) or a lipstick maker trial a lipstick to check it doesn’t run into a woman’s chin wrinkles or set like concrete in hot sun thus giving her a permanent pout? Hasn’t someone tried this skirt out, worked in it and walked in it? Or did the designer just like the pretty flowery look of the thing with its scooped edges, flounces, a gap and a curvy hem and say This’ll Do, the stores are waiting for delivery?

I admit skirt defeat and remove it, apologising to the pretty tops that don’t match, obviously, and they go into a sulk. I can hear them muttering as I close them back into the dark. I consider my mistake in not listening to my instincts in that fitting room, in being tempted by pretty flowers and something new. How often do I do this? Too often.

As to the damnably mutinous skirt, I might cut it up to use as material for something else unskirt-ish one day just to hear it squeal. As I shut it up with the tops, frock back up and flounce away, I swear I hear it giggle.