Normally, I write to music, a background of brilliant lyricists to an accord of well-depthed musicality. Beats and all. I am a rhythm dancer, know the upper levels of vocal, surface level instruments, worked with the best. He could hear discordance, dis, cor dance, in any recording and said so, when he could. And, through walls of children noise, of egg boxes, baffles and plywood confines, so did I. I was curious, like Alice, wanting to learn through my own imagination, my own stop, no, maybe, no, yes, thing. I could hear it, as he did, and still do. Any poor combination dies quickquick. The depth must be there, from the bottom to the top, or it will never grow legs.

However, this writing to music thing, is a tad poorly ce soir. My phone, which has been shouting for backup, for a couple of days, has now laid down with a ffs, refusing to connect, without a load of huffy repercussions, to my so-called smart speaker. Thus, it is silent here, in this sunshine island home with a view that stops every single passer by, and is the envy of all those who don’t see it, don’t know it, as, well, normal. It isn’t mine, nothing is mine, no ownership of land ever grinned me, not never. Land is land, land owns land, no matter what man does in his/her attempts at ownership.

I digress, big time.

I’m thinking about stamina. I knew I was always, and still am (ish) a sprinter. Can do short distances, then flop. My daughter is a long distance woman. I didn’t know her at first, once she showed her colours. How can I advise, recognise, guide a female from my birthing, who is so different to me? T’was a thing and a half, for some time. I took my mother fingers off the control button, watched her develop, away from me. I searched for a connection and found it, eventually. The Sea. It is in her blood as it is in mine and we have connected in ebbs and flows over time. She lives in the Outsea, that place where no swoosh and lap is in earshot, where Sea is a dream, a longing, where trees and insular roadings and confines, vagabond her mind, where the call of home, of gulls and the wild, of crashing storms and the loud of it, the fear and uplift, dynamics her.

I had no idea I was going to write this, in silence. I just read Stamina, and in she came.