Where i want to be right now is dressing up for a night out, a dinner, a car lifting me there and back home again, all elegant and smooth, me looking marvellous, feeling confident, no baggage. A completeness. To go dancing.

Well, that’s a dream. Life is more dynamic, more twisty, colder, sharper, inviting, a compo of shitstorm, warm encounters now and then. We move through shapes and disguises. We actually work our way through what straggles us. We do. The straggles are just flip thoughts. always the pulls from childhood expectancy. always. And the twists continue as life changes, is blown apart, creates a chasm. It can, and does. As I know.

Thing is, everyone is delonculous about Halloween. Next, Christmas. and that’s fun. I’m right there. I’m just wondering if anyone is looking deeper.

I still want to go out dancing