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Island Blog – The Dance in the Delight

So much to say, so many observations and thinks. Let us begin with the bump on my pointy finger. It isn’t painful, just there and it and I I do need the odd conversation. It’s possibly an olding thing. Anyways, this bump. I filed it down to a nothing much. Then I went to my laptop to sign in with finger recognition and was refused. I’ve been refused for days until the bump came back.

It thinks me.

Today at the Best Beach Cafe Ever, it was fun, as always, the bosses so flipping great with customers, an immediate welcome, even when we are 10 orders behind them, the chat dynamic and chuckly. Did I just make that word up…? We do all the dietary requirements here with spectacular cakes, quiches, scones and more. I love the twist and the dance of this cafe. I don’t think I have met it before. There is never a ‘No’ but instead a suggestion for a something else. I honestly think anyone who comes here feels immediately welcome, as if we were just waiting for them.

They come, the cyclists, the couples, the young families with wee ones, the folks with dogs, with troubles, with the exceedingly important need to escape to the glorious wild of this island. I met two really fun couples today. Now, here, I am clumsy with myself because I don’t know (old) the naming, labelling of pretty much anything nor anyone, nor do I care. Both couples were married men. I don’t give a bejabers about labels. I just loved interacting with them, their dog, their story. All beautiful people. We laughed in the sunshine. I watched their faces, saw their connection with each other, the familiar, and that is a beautiful thing. It lasts me.

I brought strawberries home, for ‘jammin’. My lovely bosses, who know about weighing and stuff, asked me to weigh (and stuff). I did, I did try, but got lost at 2934 kilograms. Not sure what that all means. The jam will be good, I know that. I have cooked for 40 years without weighing a damn thing. However I was nonsense at costing anything and there’s a story there. This new leadership is young and building and right on the whole lot of it all. I admire that.

It was a day of sunshine and random requests……americano, short with oat milk on the side, triple espresso, with mascarpone and lemon topped carrot cake; salted hot chocolate with a pecan brownie, a slice of lemon polenta, oh, and a fruit scone, warmed, yes, with jam and butter. An herbal tea, yes in a pot, is there lemon, can I have two plates, two forks to share that gorgeous coffee cake?

Yes, every time.

I love working with such authentic people. There’s definitely a dance in such a delight. And, a going on with what is there, just right there, without any botherment.

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Island Blog – Two Sparrows

I love my work. I’ve said this before, I know, I know, but I am happy to say it again. The energy required, the energy generated, both are like two sides of a something that has two sides, which, pretty much defines all of us. Our bright talents can go dark, but that is all about personal management, a noticing, the ability to uprise road blocks should one be careening, and our inherent goodness, because we all have that. It is slightly off-pissing that we need to keep a hold on the wonky planks of our personal attics, to ensure that the ‘cobwebs’ don’t become thixotropic, dense. cauterising. Oh, we who are honest, know that place, and there’s a choice thing there. Actually, it’s mostly an ‘oh bugger’ because what we inherently know, regardless of parental influence, is that we don’t want to harm, that we are listening, noticing, learning.

No idea why I went there. Perhaps it is because on my journey to work I meet eejits who are, very possibly wonderful people but who don’t feel the need to wave a thank you as I skid off into the briars and sludge in order that they, in pristine big-ass vehicles with one wife and possibly one dog, slide by. I’m happy with the slide, and I always wave first, but when another living, breathing, vulnerable human makes no eye contact, proffers no acknowledgement of my skid into the briars, I confess I do ‘miff’. Momentarily. It wonders me. Is this how life is for them in wherever they come from? What I do know is that it isn’t a warm community, like a remote island, wherein we all recognise the need for each other. And that is sad.

Today, as the cafe filled with soup orders, dogs, children, bikers, walkers, holiday folk with a hunger for delicious scones and fantabulous cakes, coffees, herbal teas and a welcome that seems to bring everyone together, there was just me, behind pots and bowls and a sort of lull. I heard a sparrow cheep, insistent, and recognised it immediately (the benefit of a mostly silent island life) as a young one shouting at dad. It’s usually dad. Mum has had enough. She is not there for the endless ‘feed-me’ demandings. I emerged from the pots, nobody else there and followed the sound. As I passed by the tables, conversation flowed, nobody else caught this, to discover two sparrows inside the door, on the stairs, baby shouting, dad (I imagined, exhausted, with a ‘what now?’ in his voice}. I slowly rose the stairs, the door behind them, the birds, thankfully open. I gentled ‘ off you go, you guys’ as if they could understand me. Eventually they did.

Inside the busy, the curriculum of any work, the random, the sparrow, will fly in and will think you. Some will notice and respond. Many will not. I want to notice everything, everyone, all of this life, the random, the awkward, whilst learning the ability to accommodate, even to whisper a freedom. For me, there is nothing else.

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Island Blog. – Raindrops, Curiosity and Change

I watch the rain. At first I might say it is cascading down the thatched roof, falling differently according to the turns and flats of a house with corners, and I am right, at first. When I study closer, I notice that the fall begins with individual drops, a whole line of them just at the point of falling. This is when they conjoin with other drops and become a straight line of water as they had in the moment they landed on the roof, way up there, where one slide of thatch joins the other, one this way, one that way, a steeple of fingers, protecting, sealing, a cooked snook at the sky. At first, individuals, these drops, then, it seems, merrily and inevitably becoming one body of water. They were singular as they fell from the clouds, for a long time and over a far distance, and then they met the roof, the apex and sighed into one. But did they sigh or did they happily connect with all those other solo drops, chattering and sharing space, knowing they would find themselves once again at the next fall, the one under which I stand, my fingers feeling their cool and somewhat dismissive diffidence to my skin, my palm unable to contain more than a few of them. Tipping my palm, they fall again as drips, as drops, individuals once again. Perhaps they are changed by their encounter with others and maybe more than once on their journey. It thinks me.

Although an individual’s journey through life cannot be defined as a fall, no matter how many falls may be encountered, the business of connection and, therefore, change, is true for us all. Whether a bonus or a pain in the arse, each encounter holds possibilities, for friendship, for fury, for joy, for outrage, a mind change or a mind set confirmed. Any which way, if taken seriously and with an open heart, these encounters may throw us together for a while, happily or not. When I find myself in a crowd of people, say in a busy market, inside a lift, a bus, train or plane, I have little choice beyond where I sit or stand. I have felt the irritation of bumping people unaware or uncaring about the amount of space they take up or the toes they squash and felt a rise of outrage. I have also, in those situations, felt glad I am not a bumper, not intentionally, being ever ready to flatten myself into a pencil, to take care not to invade another’s space, if space is even possible in such confinements. From my corner I have watched faces, read body language, agreed with myself that every one of us is not enjoying this one bit and then the outrage gentles into compassion. I know that soon we will become individuals once again and no longer a rush of people joined for a short time, not condemned to it forever, but what have we learned from this? Is it just something we have to bear, to re-story as a horrible experience, or did we really take in those around us and learn something from the whole experience beyond the perceived ‘nightmare?’ On looking back there were endless chances to make someone else feel better, a smile, a stepping back, an unspoken forgiveness offered, going possibly unnoticed, when a backpack thwacks a shoulder, or when an old person needs a seat and you give your own even though the young person next to you stares pointedly out at nothing. They know what they might offer, but they don’t. I get it. To be young is to fear rejection and it would take courage to proffer a seat in a public place with everyone silent and awfully busy just ‘getting through’ the so called nightmare, intact including toes.

We all need space. I certainly do. However in these times of squash, rush and bash we must all find ourselves at times. If we step into or onto them with curious interest, the whole situation is softened. A traffic jam can see us furious, finger tapping the wheel, crabby with others in the car, furious at life herself, or it can have us out of the car and walking up to the next equally compromised driver for a chat. We can observe the wildflowers on the banks, wonder at the magnitude of designing and constructing this highway, consider and reflect on our own lives, what we might change or develop. We can pick up a pen and a journal to write down some thoughts or read a book, or think hard about what this must feel like for all the other drivers and their passengers thus imprisoned. Endless, as I have said, opportunities that lift us out of our piddling little problematic world where we think we are the lead actor, the stage set just for us.

The raindrops drop, join to run a race, then divide again, into the same body of water, or forever changed because they were, just for a short while, a part of something bigger and way more powerful.